For about 2 minutes we were tempted to go ahead with buying our new house, moving in, and hoping that our old house sold before we had to pay our first mortgage on it. But, we talked it over and decided that it wasn't wise and that if God wanted us there, He would save our new house for us. It hurt. But, when you make decisions based on what God's wisdom has taught you instead of what your flesh wants, you stay under the protection of God's promises. So that's what we did. We let go.
I'm so glad we did. It's been about 4 months or so now and we still haven't sold our home. We started looking around at 10 year old homes--close to new. We were pleasantly surprised! We could get so much more for the same price if we were willing to go just a little bit older. We would have known this before if we hadn't been so focused on the thrill of a brand spanking new house.
Months later, and here we are...a new emotional roller coaster.
This time it was a new kind. Our house is no longer sitting un-looked at. Instead, the flow of people is overwhelming. One viewer after another, and one offer after another. We have gone through 4 offers now, all of which have fallen through because of the inspection. You see, we're selling in As Is condition. We have it priced right for As Is, but most people buying in this neighborhood are first time home-buyers who don't want any repairs. They are scared away by them.
So, here we go again...emotional roller coaster. Excited, disappointed, excited but hesitant, very disappointed (that one lasted all the way until the last day they could drop out of the option), another offer but not excited, still disappointed. Now, we're on our 4th or is it 5th?
In all the emotions, God has been so good. Verses keep popping up in my head and songs come on the radio just in the perfect time I need them. Here are some:
"Yet those who wait for the Lord will gain new strength; they will mount up with wings like eagles, they will run and not get tired, they will walk and not become weary." -Isaiah 40: 31
"...for we walk by faith, not by sight..." -2 Corinthians 5: 7
"God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear, though the earth should change and though the mountains slip into the heart of the sea; thought its waters roar and foam, though the mountains quake at its swelling pride. Selah." -Psalm 46: 1-3
And then my favorite, I heard in a song right after the third offer fell through and I just thought I couldn't take any more:
"Weeping may last for the night, but a shout of joy comes in the morning" -Psalm 30: 5
Imagine for a moment what happened to me:
We were driving through a bank teller on a Saturday morning before we head to the fine arts museum with the kids. We're down to our very last option day before the contract is finalized and we're excited. We're filling out the bank slip and we get a phone call from our realtor that they've decided to back out of the contract because of the inspection. Josh tries to offer them $10K off so that they can fix whatever they want, but our realtor already found out from them that no dealing would work. I'm hearing all of this from the passenger side and my 10 year old is in the back also tearing up. I've just encouraged them that their toys won't be packed for much longer. I begin to cry, trying to hide it and not doing a good job. We pull on up and Josh does the business with the teller and we move on. I can't help it after we start pulling out, and start crying quite a bit. Then, I say to Josh that I just can't handle any more...and this song comes on KSBJ:
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